Cravings and Stumbling

I haven't written in a long while. I failed out of school. I guess I am just not ready for it. This means I need to get a part time job to help support the household. Whenever Nate goes to school I can modify my work schedule accordingly. I just need to make enough money to slowly work at getting out of debt and buying things for Nate.

I have been using StumbleUpon lately. I started using it yesterday and it has given me so many ideas for DIY things and just generally advice on life. I had holed myself up again. I need to get out and have fun. I am starting to feel like I do when I'm starting to spiral into myself. I have decided that I am going to make changes now before I fall into it.

My brother, sister-in-law, and I have started playing LOTRO, and we're all in a kinship together. So I have been spending more time with them. My sister is going on a trip to California for two weeks on Monday. I miss her again, she's been busy. I forgot what it was life before I spent every other day with my family.

Dan bought us a couch for my birthday from his roommate. So we are waiting for this rain to stop so we can move my old couch. It's sad because I never want the rain to stop, but if it could stop for just a day so we could move the couch out, it would be pefect.

Being twenty-three just doesn't feel that young. Perhaps it is because I have a small child and all that responsibility, but I feel old. I need to liven my life up again, and spend some time working on me. Lately finding alone time has been so hard! Though, I decided that I need to make time for me. I need to make time to do things by myself and not get frustrated and go crazy.

I quit buying cigarettes a month ago. It's difficult, I crave them all the time. The problem is, I quit for an economic reason, not for a health reason. When I get a job again I am almost certain that I will start smoking again. I don't really know, but I have the feeling. Though we quit smoking in the apartment, and it is nice. I like not smoking in here. I have had fewer sinus infections, and I feel better. I just want a cigarette.

Well, I need to get back to sorting through my junk! I hope everyone who reads this has a wonderful time until I update again!