New and Improved

I have been in this rut lately. Basically since the beginning of 2008. I thought that since I was having a baby I had to change who I was. I needed to change, just not all of who I was. I am spending this year trying to remember who I am and be true to myself.

Starting with realizing that I am an individual. I do not need a man in my life to make me happy. My son doesn't deserve that! He needs to know that its alright to be independent. Its alright to be who you are and not care what people think.

The first thing on my list of things to work on is my self-esteem. I am beautiful, though have gained a lot of weight. I feel like, if I make myself eat better I might feel better and just be happy. Sugars and fats slow us down anyway... well no one is going to slow me down now!

I have been living in this shadow of who I was and not being who I am. All of that is going to change this year. I haven't ever felt this determined to do anything before and know that I can be anything I want to be. I'm 22 years old. Just because I have a child doesn't mean I have to act like I'm 40!

First thing's first.... I need new hair. I am getting it cut next week. I feel like I have been growing it out holding onto a dream of what someone wanted me to be. So, by the end of next week I will have new hair. Woot!

I have to go to work now, though I will update later, and definitely will post photos of my hair.